You are always in my thoughts my son there is not a second that goes by that I don't think about you. Life is so different and so lonely without you that it takes everything in me not to give up on life. I ask myself everyday Christopher why wasn't I allowed to say goodbye to you if he knew you were going to be called home? I see your friends with their families and it breaks my heart that you aren't here with your family. I catch myself at times wanting you to be in the same room as we are just for a second. Christopher, I know you are doing wonderful things up in Heaven and it's a job you took on without asking any questions either i'm sure. I just feel so lost without you because you were the one who needed me the most and now I dont' know what I am suppose to do? I always want you to know that I love you and I will always love you no matter what. I can see your smile everyday and I will embrace that with so much love. Until we meet again my son please keep watch over Jayden and your sisters and of course me. RIP my love.