So tomorrow is the walk to remember you... I can't believe that this is the life we are living now. One that is without you. I took forgranted the time we had together, the time you had here with us. I miss you so much every day Christopher and I look for you in everything I see. Waiting to see if you'll send me a sign. I haven't dreamt about you in a little while and I think that I have told myself that you only come to me when I need you the most. That was the one thing about us, even if we didn't see eachother every day or talk every day we were always there when it counted the most. I still find myself at times consumed with guilt because when you needed me the most on that morning, I wasn't there. I remember dad asking me that morning if I had talked to you and if you had gotten new tires for the truck yet. What I remember telling him is "I'm not Chris's keeper." Never would I have known that I would become "my brother's keeper." It is a title I take on with much honor Christopher. I know that you are doing great up there and that you are at peace, I just wish I could find my peace down here. I know that this empty feeling is going to last a lifetime but I know when I will feel complete again is when you and I see eachother again in that kingdom you now call home. Please watch over us as you always do. I hope you can feel all the love and millions and billions of hugs I'm sending to you up there. I miss you Chris... Love Always, Your Big Sis Amy