We are approaching our 1 year marking of your passing and I have been scared to death of this day to be honest. My son the day I lost you was the day the world lost a part of me as well. I have spent almost 1 year trying to understand why you?? I am still clueless needless to say. I have been so lost without you and if I could bring you back I would Christopher in a heart beat. There is no other Love like a Mother's Love for her child and maybe that's why I can't accept this? This was not suppose to happen to YOU and if I knew the last time I saw you was going to be the last time I would have never let you go that night! I will love you FOREVER and EVER my son. I will always hold your memories close to my heart and I will always be there for Jayden and I will always remind him how much you LOVED him. I look forward to the day you come to me in my dreams to tell me one more time that you love me my son. Amy has told me you haven't come to me yet because I won't want to let you go when you do. I always did my job as your mom by staying 10 steps in front of you to protect you from any harm.. But, I guess it's true Heaven needed you more from what I have been told. I know you are still watching over us and listening to every conversation we have about you so let me say this again: I LOVE YOU MY SON AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH.....My heart aches for you everyday and I fight everyday to make it in your honor because I know you don't want me to give up.. Please save a spot for me up there.. Love always and forever your mom...