Christopher I catch myself calling out your name and I wait to hear you respond back to me and you don't. When will I hear from you or see you? I know you are busy up there and all but, can you give me just a second to see you one more time. You were the greatest son in my book and in my eyes. Yes we had our moments when we would get mad but, my love for you always remained the same. I almost feel like I have become a robot just going with the flow of traffic to get thru another day without you here with us. I miss the little things that you would say to me that i took for granted and now I miss them so dearly. I cry for you everyday because I miss you and I just want you to come home. Chris all i ever wanted to do was to protect all three of you from harm from pain. Look what happended the day i decide to stop being a nag to you!!! I lost you and for what???I know your answer is to become an Angel up in heaven but what about us here? I never thought we would be at this point in life. I thought you and your sisters would be burying me first and not me burying you. I keep asking myself why when I sit in the car and listen to your music and the only thing that comes to mind is that you had to go home where you were needed. I lost you but I know you are up there saving someone else in need. I guess its true like this songs plays in my head that Heaven needed you more than I needed you. (God sent for a special Hero that he needed July 24)I have to believe in my heart that you and only you will help me get through this pain that I am feeling son. I will always love you and i will always miss you my son. You were my Saint Christopher for life... love your mom